Happy Birthday

 I did manage to get to the dentist for my fillings and preliminary crown work today - yay!

But this morning, even driving in, I felt this uncontrollable yearning.  Tears just behind my eyes.

I found myself thinking about the movie "I'm Your Man."  A woman agrees to an experiment of living with a humanoid robot designed to be the perfect life partner for her.  And he is ideal - except that he's designed to be always giving, never wanting.  At a key point, she is in the kitchen, crying, because she was trying to make the perfect soft boiled egg for him - knowing that he didn't need it, or want it.  He didn't need or want anything - the relationship was always just one sided.

And that's what my yearning is today.  It's Bob's birthday.  I wish I could do something for him - not in his honor, not in his memory, but for him.  I wish I could take to to go buy a new power tool, or a book, or whatever he wanted.  I wish I could cook him a steak.  Bake a birthday cake.  Take over his chores for a day.  Anything. Just to be able to give something to him, do something for him.  I wish I could make him smile, laugh.  I wish I could make him happy.

Happy Birthday, my love.